Musings @ Healing

I recently had a bout with cancer, squamous in the neck. For about 2 years I did not know if I was going to live or die. Nor did I know if I wanted to live or die. After about 2 years of staring death in the face, I decided, only somewhat recently - new years day of this year, that if I am going to live out the rest of my life, the ONLY WAY I am willing to live is to turn hell into platinum. My life was a bit hellish in some ways, not all, although many. I felt that I had lost everything that was important to me including myself. So the ONLY WAY that I would agree to live the second half of my life is to turn hell into platinum. So here I am, still alive, turning the Titanic. (tag, you're it - now it is your turn to transmute hell into platinum ... if you dare)

Namarana means first born in the Maasai language, and incidentally I am. Interestingly I was given this name without it being known that I am the eldest. :) After climbing Mt Kilimanjaro - led by several guides who were Maasai (along with guides who were of other clans like Chagga et cetra) and visiting a Maasai tribe in their village and singing and dancing with them and receiving a milk and honey blessing, I was given the name Namarana by my friend Trevor Maasai who helped lead me up and down Kilimanjaro. I am honored to be welcomed and named by the Maasai.    

I began finding heart rocks sometime around 2019. It was like my eyes were primed for them, catching my attention as I was walking. I ascribed no meaning to them at first other than delight in love being found. At this time a dear one was coming into my life in a beautiful way. I started wondering & hoping maybe the heart rocks were indicating a great love between us. Over time this dear one stepped back and amongst this challenge my health took a serious turn, and I spent the next few years wondering and questioning if I was going to live out the rest of my life. Overtime I was able to navigate some healing of my mental body, emotional body, physical body, spiritual body as well as my heart. It took great courage to do this work and it required help from many others to facilitate my transformation. Occasionally I would still find heart rocks during this time and I treasured them with great hope. Interestingly, I recently spent a week climbing Mt Kilimanjaro and I saw tons of heart rocks all over the trail. The realization that the heart rocks were for me all along, representing self love, is now at the forefront of my presence.  

I recently visited Africa, spending a week climbing Mt Kilimanjaro (a day with a Maasai tribe and 3 days in the Serengeti). Laying in my tent on the mountain, I could hear the guides and porters speaking Swahili all around me. To be honest, I totally UNDERESTIMATED the mountain in all ways: the climate, the terrain, the altitude, the magnitude of the ascent and descent, et cetera. Making it to the top of Africa was a mental game. Throughout the night and morning of the ascent there were ~40 mph winds facing us all the way to the top. The only way I found the strength was repeating the mantra, 'I think I can, I think I can' every step of the way, preceded by the realization that I am what matters in my life. The most astonishing thing about being on the mountain was the brilliance of the stars at night and seeing the milky way so clearly.

She say, 'Come, child, come."

And I say, "Yes mum."

None of us realize how powerful our minds truly are - the mind is absolutely influential. If we focus on what's good we find more good - if we focus on what is not good we see more of that. What we focus our minds on, consciously or unconsciously, is what we produce. By realizing how potent what goes on in the mind actually is, we can become conscious creators. We generate worlds, literally, with how we think. The stories we tell turn into our reality. Become conscious of how and what you are thinking about things, because it will come true! What is the engine running your wheels? Learn how to drive it, a.k.a. train your mind, because it will take you places. Where do you want it to go? 

I thought I was operating a Model T, turns out it's a Ferrari, and when you're performing with the ultimate V-12 - its best to know how to use it. So what's between your ears? I bet you've got a high performance model too...

About 10 years ago I went gluten free for health reasons. Since it has been out of my diet for so long now if I eat wheat from the US my body objects, from upset stomach to body pain & dizziness. Interestingly, when I am outside of the US I can easily digest wheat - which happens to many people. Plus eating barley & other grains with gluten from the US is fine. Turns out that wheat in the US is chemically processed and has many additional chemical additives. It is the chemicals that are making us ill. So what is the solution? Buy wheat on line that is made abroad and enjoy :) I am going to make some sourdough! 

Well, today is it, the day I launch beyond the stratosphere and into the realm of all possibility. By embodying mother god in me, as me, as self, I now embark upon infinite potential for the healing and growth of all humanity. Are you ready for the ride? Buckle up!

Namarana means first born in the Maasai language, and incidentally I am. Interestingly I was given this name without it being known that I am the eldest. :) After climbing Mt Kilimanjaro - led by several guides who were Maasai (along with guides who were of other clans like Chagga) and visiting a Maasai tribe in their village and singing and dancing with them and receiving a milk and honey blessing, I was given the name Namarana by my friend Trevor Maasai who helped lead me up and down Kilimanjaro. I am honored to be welcomed and named by the Maasai.    

I began finding heart rocks sometime around 2019. It was like my eyes were primed for them, catching my attention as I was walking. I ascribed no meaning to them at first other than delight in love being found. At this time a dear one was coming into my life in a beautiful way. I started wondering & hoping maybe the heart rocks were indicating a great love between us. Over time this dear one stepped back and amongst this challenge my health took a serious turn, and I spent the next few years wondering and questioning if I was going to live out the rest of my life. Overtime I was able to navigate some healing of my mental body, emotional body, physical body, spiritual body as well as my heart. It took great courage to do this work and it required help from many others to facilitate my transformation. Occasionally I would still find heart rocks during this time and I treasured them with great hope. Interestingly, I recently spent a week climbing Mt Kilimanjaro and I saw tons of heart rocks all over the trail. The realization that the heart rocks were for me all along, representing self love, is now at the forefront of my presence.  

I recently visited Africa, spending a week climbing Mt Kilimanjaro (a day with a Maasai tribe and 3 days in the Serengeti). Laying in my tent on the mountain, I could hear the guides and porters speaking Swahili all around me. To be honest, I totally UNDERESTIMATED the mountain in all ways: the climate, the terrain, the altitude, the magnitude of the ascent and descent, et cetera. Making it to the top of Africa was a mental game. Throughout the night and morning of the ascent there were ~40 mph winds facing us all the way to the top. The only way I found the strength was repeating the mantra, 'I think I can, I think I can' every step of the way, preceded by the realization that I am what matters in my life. The most astonishing thing about being on the mountain was the brilliance of the stars at night and seeing the milky way so clearly.

She say, 'Come, child, come."

And I say, "Yes mum."

None of us realize how powerful our minds truly are - the mind is absolutely influential. If we focus on what's good we find more good - if we focus on what is not good we see more of that. What we focus our minds on, consciously or unconsciously, is what we produce. By realizing how potent what goes on in the mind actually is, we can become conscious creators. We generate worlds, literally, with how we think. The stories we tell turn into our reality. Become conscious of how and what you are thinking about things, because it will come true! What is the engine running your wheels? Learn how to drive it, a.k.a. train your mind, because it will take you places. Where do you want it to go? 

I thought I was operating a Model T, turns out it's a Ferrari, and when you're performing with the ultimate V-12 - its best to know how to use it. So what's between your ears? I bet you've got a high performance model too...

About 10 years ago I went gluten free for health reasons. Since it has been out of my diet for so long now if I eat wheat from the US my body objects, from upset stomach to body pain & dizziness. Interestingly, when I am outside of the US I can easily digest wheat - which happens to many people. Plus eating barley & other grains with gluten from the US is fine. Turns out that wheat in the US is chemically processed and has many additional chemical additives. It is the chemicals that are making us ill. So what is the solution? Buy wheat on line that is made abroad and enjoy :) I am going to make some sourdough! 

Well, today is it, the day I launch beyond the stratosphere and into the realm of all possibility. By embodying mother god in me, as me, as self, I now embark upon infinite potential for the healing and growth of all humanity. Are you ready for the ride? Buckle up!